Indecision

Indecision

I can’t stop this feeling,

which has gotten me reeling,

way out of my safety zone,

and sending chills to every bone.

my brain keeps telling me to focus,

but my soul is flying like a swarm of locusts,

I think I’m way too late,

to negotiate with my fate.

i have stepped into the ring,

the doors closed with a ‘DING’

i thought i wanted this,

I thought i wouldn’t make a miss.

But then i never knew what was behind,

those doors. Thought that there were adventures i’d find

But i was mistaken,

My eyes were closed and i couldn’t be awakened.

I see it now. I see it all.

All the treachery has left me appalled.

I cannot back down.

Cuz of all the loved ones whom i can’t let down.

my heart spoke to me then, 

at the perfect time too, when, 

I was on the verge of breakdown

It showed me all the memories of me being happy and morose.

I saw myself traveling, 

watching places unravelling.

I saw me gaining information,

Education, just for the sake of education.

I knew then what i wanted to do.

But I don’t know if people in this era do,

things just for what they are.

But, I wanna do that, I don’t care

What they say.

Will they criticise?

That point’s precise.

will they look at me like I’m crazy?

let ‘em, the lines of possibilities to me are hazy.

The only question is,

Do i have what it takes,

to step out of the line?

Will i survive?

-lefthandedchief13

19/7/2016